Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Ugh... Another rant...

I know you guys are probably thinking: "Geez... all this girl does is freaking complain about her life". And right now, I may have to agree with you on that... But!!!! I just want everyone to know that I am not, I repeat AM NOT a negative Nelly. :)

Well.... My boyfriend and I hardly ever talk anymore... I'm not exaggerating or anything I'm just saying.... Then, if I try to talk to him and tell him how I feel about stuff, he immediately tries to say that I'm blaming him for everything. Do you think it's just in the way I word things? Or does he maybe feel guilty? BAHAHAHA. Yeah right. He's a man. Sorry. Anyways... So I am trying to be understanding, because his family is in the process of expanding their garage. I'm talking like... making it twice the size that it was before. So, he has been working his tail off trying to get it finished. But, you know... I made sacrifices for him. I stopped seeing all my friends, I went over to his house to spend time with him and his family instead of spending time with my own family. But does he remember any of that? Well it sure doesn't freaking seem like it. I just... I want our relationship to be back the way it was when we first got together. Ya know? Like that crazy teenage-puppy love, if you will. I know that sounds stupid since I'm only 18, and he's 19... But we've both changed so much. I feel like neither of us are the same people that we were 2 1/2 years ago. Maybe we've grown apart? I definitely don't want that. I mean... HELLUR!! I obviously love the boy. We've talked about having a future together, you know, marriage, kids, the whole freaking 9 yards. How am I supposed to feel confident in our future, if we don't even have a present?

1 comment:

  1. Tiff- I have SO been where you are now!! From the time I was 18 to now (22) I have grown up/changed SO MUCH!! Its just part of life. Sometimes you grow apart because some people mature at different rates, and some people just want different things in life. All I know is that you have a great head on your shoulders, and you dont need to let anyone hold you back. Trust me. I know its hard. I've came to work upset before, went to school upset, but trust me, you get over it and move on to bigger things. If nothing else, take a break from each other and see how that goes. You are way to young to miss out on all the great things you do when you're young! I am speaking from experience! :) <3